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03:22am 31/07/2005
 
mood: luv the penguins
music: silent need to think
WOW what a couple of days!! Booked a trip to florida today yea i am going to see my best with my other best it will be Amazing!!! So much fun awaits like the usually. Alot is happing with love this week people are finding people or seeing them again and i just want to throw out a warning to be careful in all situations, dont close ur self off but dont make yourself vunerable at the same time! ENJOY th moments for you never know if it willbe the last!!

I luv all my gurl and guys for that fact i just worry like the gay man i am!!LOL but u know do what you can dont strech yourself to thin cuz all its gonna do is brak you down.

And on to me!!

got a call from Justin (the luv i wish i had) yesterday while i was talking to a some what EX online and he like fliped!!! HHAHa i luv it!! But in all reality i dont know how to respond to it because he could just be looking out for the me or he could be jel!! I hope hes jel but i can never really tell( yes i know i just rymed0 totally fine!! HE always calls me baby and hunny and tells me he luvs me but is that a friendsship thing or whjat god i hate men so many can relate to that LOL!! cuz i still luv them!!

And i feel as though(totally different subject) I azm losing Miah and i hate it but i know it is all my fault because i flip and lie didnt talk to him for like a week cuz of a lot of shit i shouldnt get into over the net!! So i wont!1 But i miss it, i miss all the times we would just talk about bull shit and never care about anything and always have fun together!! AN ALSO I hate the fact that i asked him to chill if he didnt have to wrk on fri and he didnt but he chilled with Brandan Fine!! Nothing against brandan i think the kid is so awesome but why did he call him instead of his Best FUCKIN friend!!! What ever i will always luv him like a brother and i think our trip to florida in 2 weeks wiil end this weirdness between us!! Or so i hope!!

Also I feel as though me and britt (Miahs sister have gotten amazingly close and it is great!! HGOD i luv the ability to be me completelyt when i am with her!! HOWEVER I have that with Kathy, Sari and Miah and Brandon but it is somehow different cuz she is always there no matter what!! AND LATELY I HAVE NEEDED THAT!!

Wow i am tired!!!! shit fuck i have to work another double tomorrw == i am gonna be mad tired LOL totally fiine it will be good $ which we all need!

NICK is going to bed

Oh wait onee more thing i feel like a complete DICK because i miss shanon and havent called her or anything god i luv all the time we have together i need to see her very soon!!!

KAT i luv u


Oh and KATER u need to give me some insight on Justin cuz u met and talk to him!!! PLEASE!!1

Also I really dont know where i would be if me and Sari didnt get so close recently YOUR amaze aand i luv*<>*		  
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Well its been awhile   
01:06am 28/07/2005
 
mood: tired
music: I tunes
Well how long has it been, way way too long !! All i have to say is a lot of shit has gone down and i wont remember half of it!! BUt all those people that know me and chill with me KNow all that has happened to me since my computer has be DOWN!!!

Well lets just start with i work way to much. I havew like to days of a week monday and friday it really sucks but i am making mad money!! Whch I can't complain about have'nt BEEN able to get to thw new harry potter book yet cuz i have to re-read the 5th book first and i jujst have like now time with work but i am getting there!! Well enought random shit!!1

Had a huge blow out with my two best friends M and B and lets just say it was'nt pretty!! I cried alot alot!! Totally Fine!!! Tears heall all pain to some extent i think anway!! Well it had been building up because of a lot of shit they were doing that i was sick of!! But i have learned to deal with that and now know things might not ever change, but i will always love them not matter what!!! So i gave up on my being mad kick when i had a real conversation and worked everything out with them! and now it is back to normal and everything is just peachy!!!( had to say it)

Oh yeah and then found out B haD TO Move back to Fl for reasons out of his control!! and i was very pissed cuz this was supposeed to be our summer!!! Whatever i think i am going to visit him in like two weeks!!! YEAA FLORIDA!!! He doe snot know this it will be great!!!!!

THen i kinda got kicked out of my house!! so i lived with my lover Britt She is the most Amazing person!!! end of story...

I See you in dream land by the water Fall LOL!!!

Anyway Lived at Miahs dads house for a week It was so amaze what can i say!! I was actually able to get my shit straight in a manner of speaking. LOL!! And now i am back home typing on my brand new computer!!! God i love it!!

Oh and by the way Kathy and Sari dont think i forgot about YOu guys I luv you two so very much where would we be without each other!!1 Thanks for comming over that night i reallly need it as you can see!!! Oh and Kathy everythign will work out you know what i am talking about (the bus will EVENTUALLY arrive) u know what i mean!!! And Sari your BEAUtiful and You deserve J more than anyone!!1 Hey how is that Going?

ALSO Kathy thank you for making me relize the path i was about to take and turn from it YOu know the one my mom took!!! I wont let m,yself lose yuou or amyone over that shit life and friends are way to important!!! And GURL NEVER FORGET YOUR MY SAVIOR and always will be!!!

Well alot more than just that happened but i have to work in the morning so good night I luv you all!!1		  
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confrontation   
12:59am 04/05/2005
 
mood: I love over comming shit!!
music: silence is golden
Well it happened I stood up to one of the most underlying issues in all my stress!! I've delt with him and no longer with i be huanted with the pain and agoney he mad me suffer nor will i blame tha night on me it was him all him i did not cause it in any way I HATE HIM!! I never thought i could feel such anger to a once very Close friend!! I hope he relizes what he did and can forgive him self cuz god know it will take me forever to forgive that peice of SHIT!!


on a lighter note I am now in this group called SAE (sexual assualt Education) which i think is one of the main reasons why i am ok with it now!! Starting this group as one of the main figures make me extactic, knowing i could help prevent what has happned to me and so many others just by going and talking to others and telling my story!! And god willing it will be told and i will save some else the pain i have endured!!!

Also SAE will be great once it really gets going like wow!! I am going to WESTCONN next year so i can stick with it and sincew alot of my groups sponsers are affiliated with Westconn i can ensure that this program will take off!! SO basically this is a group of people that have been sexually assulted or raped and want to do something to prevent it rom happing to others. so we are putting a program together so we can go to high schools and colleges and speek and tell our stories and raise awarness. Oh an d kateri i need to speak to u about a movie i am putting together, need some advice!!!

OH yeah and if anyone has and issue with something i went trough i am here and well if u feel up to joing this group then by all means contact me some how!! Its easy you can't miss me in the hallways at school!! Ill be loud ands singing some type of showtune!!!		  
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hell yea   
01:24pm 01/05/2005
 
mood: accomplished
music: havent got the music to work YEt
Got my comp fix shit i have to do everything myself i sat on the phone for like soooooooooooo long and i could bearly understand the women well i think that hat is was!!! I had better luck with the atomated women at least i could understand her ( for Kathy) Onion!!! Anyway since i ahev a computer back my SN is nickel12051@aim!!! So Im me!!!		  
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holy shit   
09:20pm 10/03/2005
 
mood: the end is near
music: Wicked
right so two shows left!!!! Im gonna cry s u all know!!!! I can't believe im here< my senior year> right anyway!!1 LAst two shows like WTF if they get cancled ill freak i dont want a sunday Show they SUCK ASS!!! We all know that so lets all pray and see what we can do!!! OMG 2 SHOWS left!!! I gotten so close with basically everyone this year like and there as like no BIG Drama except for on LJ its been a great run lets go out in fucken style!!!! Just a word Kateri_i never thought i would ever get this close to you, u mean so much to me i dont think the show would be the same with out u!! UR AMZING!! LETS DO SOME COC---a cola Kaytee LO__ well what can i say well i am still waiting fo that kiss, It will be perfect LOL!!! Your awesomeand im gonna miss u !! KTO - honestly what can i say that will ever truly epress my love for you!! I will always be there for you, your such a great and talented person. And we have just work so hard this year U KNNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT lol !!! I luv u!!!MIAH- enough said ur my best friend!!! ANDY- Random but i am so glad we have became close Your really an inspiration for me>> i mean all your skill AMAZ. and well you just rock!!! and keep ur hands off BZ! JOhn- been friends forever but holy shit once agin the show brought us closer and well u surprised me you did such a great JOB!!! KEEP IT UP!!!Britney R- I luv you and BZZZ so much!! MAttresses u and me on top of one another AMazing!!! Marissa_ we all know ur getting the lead next year and wow ur dancing is just awesome!! I luv u gurl goodluck next year!! I am so glad we all went through this together the show was and is GREAT because of all of YOU!!! I LUV U ALL!!!		  
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likfe3   
01:35am 26/02/2005
 
mood: captin i Luv U
music: i AM NOT SURE
DRUNK____ thats all i have to say right!!! I have hjad an amazing night if i am speling wrong srry i luv everyoner!! anyway hell week has just begun like omg shit!!1 wE OPERN IN LESS THAN A WEEK!!! gOD BWE WITH US!!		  
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tring to keep up   
02:01pm 10/02/2005
 
mood: i have no time and im OK!!
music: once upon MY matress
Ok so everyone that i try to get into a relationship with seem to fuck me over in some way. Like what the fuck i hate it cuz all i really want is a relationship, i mean what do i do wrong!! I mean i can attract most of who i want to but they always seem just to walk away or fuck it up in some way. Any Advice(i kinda just want to give up but well see) Anyway Kathy get your car done plaese i need someone to drive me around!!LOL The show count down 3 weeks tomorrow i am freaking out some people need to losen up and fall into their charater you know who you are!! Lets make this show amazing we have the chance to lets take it, and blow everyone away. I like have no time with my two new clases and tring to pass wit good grades rehersal every night and homework and i work on Saterdays and occasional sundays. And usually we i have rehersal saterday mornings. And i dont feel stressed just like i kinda should be but im not!! LIke wtf im out!!LEave one		  
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Midterms   
08:54am 31/01/2005
 
mood: bitchy
music: none
Yea one to go and feel like i am getting sicker and sicker. i hate this midterm shit i just want to go home and sleep which I will be doing in like 2 and ahalf hours!!		  
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parents   
03:13pm 25/01/2005
 
mood: Parents
music: the Tv
OK now i need to vent a little!! Alot of people now how cheery i am all the time well sometime it tends to be an act. I am goo though right?LOL anyway my parents are just so bad lately i cant handel it like omg the just piss me off so bad like wholy shit. Listen to this the take the insurance off my car for the sheer fact that they want to save money when i am the one that pays the insurance. does that make any sense? And my mom always says stupid shit about me and my sexuality like its so fucked up like i just hate being home cuz they treat me so bad. You know that feeling of comfort you should feel when your home i dont feel that at all if anything i feel uncomfortable, a constant agony of being around my parents cuz they can never just leave me alone not even for five min. ther're always attacking me about something... oh hell i only have five more months but it just gets so fuckin hard sometime. I cant wait for college Seniorities i have had since day one of school i need to get the fuck out of this town!!!		  
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Run from school   
03:02pm 25/01/2005
  ok lets talk about today... went to my G period midterm which i think hopefully i did ok on, but whatever i still pass and then i was on my way to my A period class when Brandon Appears. "Dude do you want to leave school." "um classes are only 20 min. and i can study at home hell yea lets bounce." We then just walk out of school after Mr. Packard had said EVERYONE SHOULD BE IN THERE A PEIOD CLASS. It was Brandon His gurl Chrissy and I, we all went to my favorite place starbucks, and to the mall did some window shopping and ate salads at the food court. However brandon being the broke ass that he is bummed money from chrissy all day i think she spent like 30$ on him just in the mall. Then the best part of the day we all went tanning it was amazing. THat was another 6 bucks spent on Brandon Whatever he is awesome. I mean Honestly what would life be like without Brandon Levine? No Exams for me tomorrow!!! YEA!!  
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Continuing on...   
09:06pm 24/01/2005
  be her. Sickness taking over Joseph's body, he still does not believe it could be her. Running to the drivers side to get her out of the car, shit the door was jammed, a sudden wave of strength over takes hime as he rips the door off the car. Grabbing her a tear rolls down his cheek, her face recognizable however it did not look like her. How could someone so happy and cheery look as though shes was hanging on for life. She open her eyes, which were full of tears as she opens her mouuth to...  
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POPO   
07:49pm 24/01/2005
  well about tonight!! I was with my best friend Kathy and her friend Sarai And they were smokin and i would have been if i didnt quite. Anyway a cop (PIG) pulled us over took all or IDS and we were sitting there for about 45 mion to find out that!!

ME-219$ (throwing a butt out the window, never happened)
Sarai-219$(same thing as me)
Kathy-186 (not having her ID and no license plate on the front of the car)

total- 624$
BUll shit right?

FUCK ALL COPS haha whatever not paying it cuz it never happened i have a court date!!!		  
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07:51pm 23/01/2005
 
mood: play like wow
music: i am not sure!!!
OK finally going home after being at Miahs Literally all weekend no lie!! Realizing how fuck i am cuz i have a g period exam Physics thanks scheem i ve learned nothing. whatever i am gonna go home and review lines cuz no matter how hard i study i know i am gonna fail!!! And some thoughts John you will be amazing in ur role so just let loose and everything will come to u, live it up it is our last show together. and for kto and lo we all know who should have been what!! LOL but whats done is done so lets do it and right!! oh yea and we have to get started on figuring out what were doing for maguire and keck as well asa start working on the 2005 play awards to the cast, who will get what? and what the hell are we gonna name them? lots to do 6 weeks to do it in let go!! Play Heyyy? UM HI BYE!!		  
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04:57pm 23/01/2005
  So i think i might become addicted to this i really like it!!!  
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